AHunter3
29th May 2024, 09:00 PM
I'm tired of being on the ropes; I've been whammed back here before and gotten off 'em and I'm moving off them again now.
National, coup d'etat-flavored, total gamechanger politics -- check!
Politics a bit more up close if not quite personal, New York State // the primary adversarial party aligned against the coup d'etat oriented threat folks, they are also not so nice, if a bit less End Of Days; forcing 3rd-party orgs off the visible ballot by tripling x doubling the requirements, all to force a binary choice upon us. As if binary either-or was ever going to benefit *them* -- check!
Nobody is expressing interest in representing my book to the publishers. By far the best book I've written so far and the publishing world and game are frustrating. Book about being in a supposedly voluntary "work on yourself" life-change spa that's indistinguishable from the classic loony bin when you're viewing it up close and personal. And while failing to get a lit agent interested, I'm spending my time reading Rob Wipond's book *Your Consent Is Not Required* which is all about the complete lack of any social protection from psychiatrized, how there are legal powers that can and do whisk people away to be locked up and involuntarily drugged into an empty-minded state -- check!
LGBTQIA-land hasn't been quite so barren and hostile, but nevertheless it really hit me that at 65 I never forged or found any kind of community in the actual physical spaces, ever once found myself in some kind of establishment or social space where I felt like I was among my people. I do want to thank the people in BEYOND THE BINARY in particular, and LGBTQ Authors and GenderQueer Support and Talk for at least giving me that sense of being a part of a gender-identity community on an online basis, at least. And, you know, if any one issue that I perceived as an issue has mostly gone in directions I, at 21, wanted to see the world go, it's in here. It's not perfect, I have a lot of stuff I want to say that hasn't been heard, but we have a vocal presence in society. Not that it isn't quite threatened by the political takeover stuff I mentioned above.
Choir - It's amazingly important to sing. Our previous director moved on after many years and the director of the local high school choirs took over. I'd had a critical perspective on him and was ready to have one on her too, but I was in an amazingly good high school choir, not some long-established ensconced community-pride kind of high school choir but instead a choir director in his 1st and 2nd year, building from scratch. And I was in his choir. And he did amazing things. So... departing local modern-era choir director took us through some good stuff, and left, and now new director has given us music and piloted us through three seasons of researsal and performance. I still don't think I'll ever sing under the baton (or more accurately hand gestures) of a better choir director than Dan Sass of Los Alamos High School 1974-1976, once you take into consideration I only saw what he built in his first two years. But this is nice. Although I don't personally feel fully at ease there, not that other choristers are hostile, but more that there's the usual "we're all the same here" vibe that has so often felt to me like "none of you has ever been marginalized, have you, or you'd be more careful with that".
Financial Security and Physical Health and All That -- I'm ridiculously well-situated. I guess that's kind of necessary if I'm really going to live to 110, which has been the plan for decades. My formative on-my-own years were all "earn enough to feed yourself and pay the rent if you're lucky". I still am not used to pulling down enough money for things. And it keeps getting better. Not having to commute to work and instead work via remote connection from home not ONLY means not having to shell out to transportation, it also means I get to leverage my home computer powers to deal with workplace data management. They have abysmally bad tools there. I am a pro at data dev, and I have the tools. I spend my dayys transferring data via clipboard and paste in the Windows remote environment and they really don't give me enough to do. What occupied most of the time of my predecessor, and tied up several other people before they let her deal with it, takes me a small percentage of the 7 hour day they pay me for. They should REALLY let me advise them on software platforms.
Live ain't bad. It could use some improvement. I'm doing what I can with that.
National, coup d'etat-flavored, total gamechanger politics -- check!
Politics a bit more up close if not quite personal, New York State // the primary adversarial party aligned against the coup d'etat oriented threat folks, they are also not so nice, if a bit less End Of Days; forcing 3rd-party orgs off the visible ballot by tripling x doubling the requirements, all to force a binary choice upon us. As if binary either-or was ever going to benefit *them* -- check!
Nobody is expressing interest in representing my book to the publishers. By far the best book I've written so far and the publishing world and game are frustrating. Book about being in a supposedly voluntary "work on yourself" life-change spa that's indistinguishable from the classic loony bin when you're viewing it up close and personal. And while failing to get a lit agent interested, I'm spending my time reading Rob Wipond's book *Your Consent Is Not Required* which is all about the complete lack of any social protection from psychiatrized, how there are legal powers that can and do whisk people away to be locked up and involuntarily drugged into an empty-minded state -- check!
LGBTQIA-land hasn't been quite so barren and hostile, but nevertheless it really hit me that at 65 I never forged or found any kind of community in the actual physical spaces, ever once found myself in some kind of establishment or social space where I felt like I was among my people. I do want to thank the people in BEYOND THE BINARY in particular, and LGBTQ Authors and GenderQueer Support and Talk for at least giving me that sense of being a part of a gender-identity community on an online basis, at least. And, you know, if any one issue that I perceived as an issue has mostly gone in directions I, at 21, wanted to see the world go, it's in here. It's not perfect, I have a lot of stuff I want to say that hasn't been heard, but we have a vocal presence in society. Not that it isn't quite threatened by the political takeover stuff I mentioned above.
Choir - It's amazingly important to sing. Our previous director moved on after many years and the director of the local high school choirs took over. I'd had a critical perspective on him and was ready to have one on her too, but I was in an amazingly good high school choir, not some long-established ensconced community-pride kind of high school choir but instead a choir director in his 1st and 2nd year, building from scratch. And I was in his choir. And he did amazing things. So... departing local modern-era choir director took us through some good stuff, and left, and now new director has given us music and piloted us through three seasons of researsal and performance. I still don't think I'll ever sing under the baton (or more accurately hand gestures) of a better choir director than Dan Sass of Los Alamos High School 1974-1976, once you take into consideration I only saw what he built in his first two years. But this is nice. Although I don't personally feel fully at ease there, not that other choristers are hostile, but more that there's the usual "we're all the same here" vibe that has so often felt to me like "none of you has ever been marginalized, have you, or you'd be more careful with that".
Financial Security and Physical Health and All That -- I'm ridiculously well-situated. I guess that's kind of necessary if I'm really going to live to 110, which has been the plan for decades. My formative on-my-own years were all "earn enough to feed yourself and pay the rent if you're lucky". I still am not used to pulling down enough money for things. And it keeps getting better. Not having to commute to work and instead work via remote connection from home not ONLY means not having to shell out to transportation, it also means I get to leverage my home computer powers to deal with workplace data management. They have abysmally bad tools there. I am a pro at data dev, and I have the tools. I spend my dayys transferring data via clipboard and paste in the Windows remote environment and they really don't give me enough to do. What occupied most of the time of my predecessor, and tied up several other people before they let her deal with it, takes me a small percentage of the 7 hour day they pay me for. They should REALLY let me advise them on software platforms.
Live ain't bad. It could use some improvement. I'm doing what I can with that.