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Anyone want to tell me I'm not alone here?

Not that I have specific reasons to be scared.

Well, some, my wife got sick about 2 weeks ago, roughly 5 days after we started self isolating anyway. She had a dry cough and a mild fever, body aches, fatigue, flu like symptoms. At the time you had to have a 104 degree fever to get a COVID test and her fever was only ever up to 100.1 (and only that high for about 24 hours, mostly it was around 99.5) so we were told to consider her presumed COVID and stay home monitor things and have her get lots of rest and fluid. In about 5 days she felt much better. She still isn't exactly well and today shes coughing again, but it's been cold and damp and she has had a couple of days of insomnia. Things are probably ok. She's in her 30s and generally healthy and ALWAYS takes a long time to fully get over a chest cold thing. So...still. It's nerve wracking.

Me and my daughter, neither of us have been sick that we are aware of. So that's good. And this is the start of week 4 of almost total isolation for us, so if we were going to get sick, we probably would have. I work with seniors for a living and the county I live in was one of the first ones in Pennsylvania to have a serious COVID outbreak so we self isolated as soon as they shut down schools. Which brings me to the second reason I am scared, I have no idea what the hell is going to happen to us financially. We own an insurance agency that works with seniors. I am rapidly trying to learn how to do my job by phone rather than in person, tricky at best, but my whole client base is under attack by this thing AND today I started getting calls from people who want to cancel their policies because their part time jobs that they had been keeping to make ends meet are being eliminated and their insurance policies seem like extravagant extra expenses now. Never mind that this is precisely the wrong time to drop your life insurance. I get it, you have to eat. We have savings, and money coming in from work that I did before things went weird. But the future is, for the first time in a long time, totally unclear to me in terms of what is going to happen to my business.

So, financially we are in super uncertain times. But, realistically, probably ok. My wife is sick, but also, realistically probably ok. But when you are home alone with nothing but your own thoughts and reportage of the MOST horrible extreme circumstances going on in the outside world, things can start to feel terrifyingly bleak.

So...today, I'm scared. Yesterday I was pretty hopeful, tomorrow who knows? How about you all. How's the GBB holding up?