God I hate this. I really do.
Please don't take it personally,
Colby
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Originally Posted by Colby11
Meeko- I feel like she is town. I don’t have any real reason except that she has had a hard couple of weeks, and she seems genuinely frustrated. That plus the lack of enthusiasm kinda pegs me in the town realm.
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I'm not sure how to respond here.
 
It was my intention to test out she / her along with my Mendie sock account in the next game.
I mean, I'm not calling anyone out on it. And, the upshot is, it does give me .... different feels here. Like, a feeling that I wouldn't have expected to feel.
Not sure if that is good or bad.
.... And taking a few moments here before I compose these next lines.
As I've said before, you all are the only group of people that I am per se out to.
Just. Seeing Meeko with those pronouns, I'm not sure if I can ever find words. [[I guess the answer to the above gets demoted to a bad feeling.]]
There is, just, the ever so slightest amount of give to my gender. It does not want to be held fast to Cis Male. It just doesn't. Just before coming back in to the game here, I had pulled up the GenderWiki ((yet again, again)) to see if stating that I am AMAB over that I am CisMale has the nuance that I am looking for. Like, and I hate to trivialize others here, but I feel that, to me, AMAB admits to a rounding error that moves the thing questioned "up" into CisMale.
That, every now and then, there is a blink and you miss it, amount of Femininity to me. The moments, collected over years, along with the shadows* they cast, which remain, I am forced to conclude that it is a "Real" thing, and that I do indeed have those rare flash moments.
I think all of my, looking at it, magnifies it, and unjustly inflates it.
*Despite the entire movement, moment, and subculture that is (Was) " Brony " I personally consider my liking of My Little Pony to be a "shadow" here. I would like to think, that even if Bronies didn't happen, as a subculture, that I would still have found the show, and it would have become more of a guilty pleasure than it is now. I have similar ideas about Mikes Hard Lemonade, Origami, and not ever, ever wanting to have to deal with a full payload in back of a pick-up truck.
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It gets more confusing ::
And, if you really, really want to get into the weeds here, Mendie considers Meeko to be a deadname. But that's like, that's miles beyond what I am asking anyone to follow. If you are confused, just know that I am, as well, and well, for the most part, I am piloting this thing, right?
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I don’t have any real reason except that has had a hard couple of weeks, and she seems genuinely frustrated. That plus the lack of enthusiasm kinda pegs me in the town realm.
Not sure where we left off on this, That,
Thursday two weeks ago was the worst day at work in 5 years,
The Thursday after that? None other than the CEO comes into my store, and down my cash register line. I made a full transaction with the CEO.
Who was completely disguised, and made no effort at all to reveal himself.
While I basically, essentially didn't do anything that I was supposed to do / ask customers.
Legit, if something happens to me on the 14th, I am taking the 21 off.
I feel like I already shared this. But, I mean, I think it's obvious Im not running on all eight cylinders.
[[Some would say I never was, but, well, give me this one, folks. please.]]