"life is just a game" - eh?

[Simple Linctus]

I'm reasonably sure I've mentioned this before, but if not, I take varying amounts of testosterone (they vary depending upon what I do, I am prescriped a uniform daily amunt lulz).

Anyway I've been doing this a reasonable bit and first of all, it fucks around with my self confidence/self belief/self behavior/etc/etc - I dunno how much to list. But basically depending upon my amount of testosterone I am a hugely different person.

That's not especially important except as to say what it results in. Basically the big difference is if I am on a good amount of testosterone I don't give a fuck. That is not, indeed, definitely not the same as saying I am not planning or whatever. I am possibly planning more. But I just don't care about the result... or if I am really specific, I'm after a "best" result but assume if I don't get it then I'm gonna get one in the future. Guess you could call this positive mental attidute.

Anyway the reason I mention this is cause what the fucking hell, the more I j ust let this shit happen, the more good things happen to me. If I don't give a fuck about my love life, then I have a fucking love life. If I don't give a fuck about my jobs, I have fucking job offers thrown at me. If I don't give a fuck about creditors, they forgive me. And so on.

Yet oddly I am if anything becoming more sensitive, in a way. It's just a testosteroney-fuck you that I get and it works. And by the way this is definitely not the first time I've had this, but I feel the need to bring it up as it works yet again and is more clear to me now.

I really want to understand this cause at "heart" I am still neurotic, and it is quite amusing actually in an intellectual sense to see my "neurotic" interpretation fight my "ballsy" (total misnomer: my balls are rubbish!) interpretation depending upon my hormone levels. Intellectually I'm allways gonna be something of a shirking wuss but why the hell can this sort of insencerity come from just one hormone? The main point of this thread, btw, is because I just don't see how any adult can be depended upon to act in the right way.

[Harry]

That's how you can tell who the adults are. They do the right things when there's no reason to, and they can be depended upon because they know people are depending on them.

[hatesfreedom]

i like to pound a bunch of testosterone and then get on my cellie

i get on a trust hunt with my mates, mates who can be depended upon

mates you can trust to act the right way

[Paul in Qatar]

Am I the last man on earth who still injects T? These gels and patches are for sissy men.