My wife has died.
 

She was in declining health for several years. About two weeks ago, her blood sugar crashed(she was a diabetic) and yo-yoed up and down for two days. When it stabilized, she was foggy and unwilling to eat or drink. I finally persuaded her to go to the hospital but over the week she was there, she had, essentially, a whole system shutdown.
Yesterday, I honored her wish to not be kept alive by machine.

We had over 37 years of good(with a few rocky patches) times.
I'll miss you, honey.

That is a terrible blow, let me offer my sincere condolences.

How are you holding up, Coach?

I'm alright. This wasn't totally unexpected, just the timing changed at the end.
Sort of like riding a car down a hill with an unseen cliff at the end.

I'm so sorry. :hug:

I'm so sorry to hear this for you.

My deepest sympathies, rc.

coach, I am so sorry.

I'm very sorry for your loss, running coach.

I am so sorry Coach!

People who go through this know that even when it is "expected" it can still be fucking devastating.

Condolences, and a hug. 37 years -- that's a lot of memories.

I'm sorry, rc.

I'm so sorry to hear this. You have my deepest sympathy.

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Thank you all for the kind words and emoticons.;) They really do help.

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Please accept my deepest condolences and a virtual hug, should that be welcome. You guys had an amazing run, 37 years is a testament to your devotion and care for each other. May the Goddess hold her close and blessed be. Strength and peace to you. :hug: :heart:

Aw crap - even when we know its coming, it still hurts.

My condolences, coach. I wish you many months of peace. The future is ok, go there. Keep the memories, treasure them, but move on.

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Very, very sorry for your loss. I hope you’re ok.

Remember we're all here for you.

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God bless you and the rest of your family always!!!

Holly

I'm really sorry for your loss. I never know what to say.

My condolences. Sad to hear.

Hang in there, coach.

Thanks, all. Everything helps.

I'm sorry, Coach. :hug:

I'm very sorry, coach. May you find peace.

I am very sorry. Please accept my deepest empathy.

Deepest and most sincere condolences RC. Even when you know it's coming, the end is always a surprise.

You did a very brave and noble thing by allowing your wife to die with dignity and you have my respect for that. Peace be with you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace in the memories of the good times and love for your wife.

So sorry for your loss, running coach.

Take care of yourself.

I’m so very sorry, rc.

Thanks, everyone. It made getting through the first day easier.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

My condolences Mr. coach.

Very sorry for your loss, coach.

I'm very sorry to hear this, this is very sad.

This is terrible news. I'm so sorry Running Coach.

I'm so so sorry to hear this, Running Coach.

So this morning I put on some music to get my mind off things and the first song that comes up on shuffle is Darryl Worley-I Miss My Friend
I fucking lost it.

This isn't a home anymore.

What a brutal kick in the feels from the universe. :(

:(

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The universe needs a swift kick right in the initial singularity :mad:

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It's really awful, isn't it, how the rest of the world goes on without us? Don't they care?

I'm so sorry, I'll pray for you and the family.

Oh, Coach, I'm so sorry. There are no words I can think of to ease the loss of this most important person in one's life. Know that we are with you in thought and spirit.

I'm really sorry to hear this, I can't imagine how hard a time this must be for you. Please take care of yourself. :(

Several years ago, my wife put together a bag of important papers, life insurance papers, prepaid funeral papers, etc. Mixed in were her name change and just random bits and pieces, birth certificates, passports(hers), our marriage license. It turns out my baptism certificate was in there.
Now, while our birthdays were a week apart, she was 18 years older.
When I looked at my baptism certificate, I found I was baptized on her birthday.

Going through stuff can be hard. I put all the photos and stuff from my folk's house away for a while before I started looking through it.

Big hugs, this hurts.

Sorry for your loss. :(

running coach, thanks for sharing this with us. Again, I'm sorry for the loss of your beloved.

Smart of her to do this. I need to do something similar. I found out after being sick in bed for a week that my husband doesn't know how to run the dishwasher. He'd be lost dealing with the business end of things.

That's very cool. :)