Where I prattle on about things that for some reason I don't feel would make a good post.
SO tempted to put this on facebook (but won't)
Posted 6th February 2012 at 09:24 AM by GreyCloud9
What I want to put: Attention those who disagree with my latest life decisions: The nightmares have stopped, I have stopped crying daily, stopped snapping at people, have been able to focus on the house and family. Yes I need consoling, but I have a feeling it won't change me from this path.
Obviously NOT going to do that.
Basically after a major event in June, I have not wanted to be a part of my marriage anymore. A few dramatic events later and I was in the state I described above. People keep telling me that my husband has been working on himself and changing and I need to keep giving him chances.
Another conflict happened, and I decided that I just could not continue this way. I told my husband last month that we are separated. We are still in the same house, and I am still functioning as a part time grocery worker, full time caretaker of my family. I honestly don't know where I am going from here, but every time I ask myself if I want to go back to my husband, the answer is no.
Obviously NOT going to do that.
Basically after a major event in June, I have not wanted to be a part of my marriage anymore. A few dramatic events later and I was in the state I described above. People keep telling me that my husband has been working on himself and changing and I need to keep giving him chances.
Another conflict happened, and I decided that I just could not continue this way. I told my husband last month that we are separated. We are still in the same house, and I am still functioning as a part time grocery worker, full time caretaker of my family. I honestly don't know where I am going from here, but every time I ask myself if I want to go back to my husband, the answer is no.
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Hang in there. You're strong and you will come out on the other side even stronger, and your family will be all the better for it. And so will you.
Wishing you peace and strength.Posted 6th February 2012 at 10:18 AM by Dazzling White Diamonds 
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You go Girl. You've gotta do what you know is right for yourself and your daughter and ..just stop listening to the naysayers.
Only you can know when you've hit the end of the road, and only you can know that something is so fractured as to be irreparable.
Stay strong.Posted 6th February 2012 at 05:13 PM by Dragonlady
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Thank you ladies for the kind words
Posted 6th February 2012 at 06:32 PM by GreyCloud9
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Hey, life's too short to stay in an untenable position. If you aren't happy, you aren't and it really makes less than a shit's difference that someone else is "changing" or "needs more chances." I spent twenty years with my ex looking for change and giving more chances and ended up worse off than if I'd just dumped the fucker nine years before rather than continually going back for "another chance." If your husband is really serious about changing, he can do it on his own then come to you AFTER he's done improving himself and ask you out on a date, which you may or may not be open to--it's YOUR choice. As for everyone else, tell 'em to fuck off, it's none of their business.
There are a million worse things than being alone, trust me on this one.Posted 8th February 2012 at 09:22 AM by SmartAleq
